Challenges that i went through

Gee… My last post was in 2010… It’s 2012 now! Time really wee… flies… I left my ex-company (my comfortable environment) in Sep ‘2011 and joined the new place at end Sep on the same year. Did I mention that the interview was though short but an intensive one, the Advisor of the Division interviewed me, he was a fatherly figure whom if you don’t know him, would say he’s a fierce old man but getting to know him further, he’s really a sincere man. Looking back at what I have achieved for the past year in 2012, I was like “duh, what did I do for the past 6 months?” Haha.. Well, I would say I have at least learnt something which I was not given an opportunity back some years ago while I was with my ex-boss. He’s great but guess making changes in the working environment may not be a good thing for him, thus I was like there for almost 4 years, 3 years & 8 months to be exact (does that sounds familiar?) 

Life challenges are ever growing in my life, I would say. Having a new job, deal with changes in life, etc. My hubby had depression last August where his boss, let’s call her Ms I, based on his sharing.. Ms I didn’t realize that the problem is within her, staff under her started resigning. My hubby was one of the 4 whom resign with that month, poor he.. Having to “suffer” and “tolerate” her style of management pushes him to the negative side of his life. Really thank Gohonzon for the good fortune that he accumulated, if not, I think he may not be able to walk out of the depression mood.

Eventually, environment at work is expanding. People are growing in here and once again, the question of “is this my mission?” appears in my mind. Do I seek to expand my knowledge in work or do I choose to do something that I am comfortable with? Finding a job nowadays is not easy as you know, we probably have to fight with FT to get the same job and probably same or slightly lower pay, as being a boss, would you rather employ a true home breed folk or someone with a cheaper asking pay? Well, that is another question for bosses to think again.

Moving on, lately, I realized I have been dealing with quite some problems handling with teenagers. It was heart wrecking to see this young lady going through with anger management issue, parents quarreling with financial issue and young man having to juggle with his sister, parents’ quarrels, studies, etc. I want to help them but there is a limit as in what we can do to help the younger ones. For the adults, it’s totally out of control if the mother starts to “went mad”, for sure, this family needs to go the revolution to have a harmonious, united and happy family. Aside from this, I had problems talking to this lady, let’s name her L. I need to re-look into myself, as what she feedback, she said that I was damn serious. -_-“ do I sound that serious? Constantly, I need to re-look into my life mirror, I would keep asking myself am I am I?? I just hate this when I had to brave this head on, my fundamental darkness in life. Jia U! I had to discover myself before the end of this year. 

i hope i can plan for another long trip, Turkey was beautiful. We were there in late March this year....

Once again, i hope my next post won’t be years later…